I'm looking at all of the different artists, and they are depressing me and inspiring me at the same time. On one hand they are so good that I feel that I have to practice for 4 months straight just to be semi-close, but on the other they inspire me to actually be that good. Sucks that I don't have the time for it. I'm trying to learn the Adobe Creative Suite as well with not much luck. I think I just need to break my television with a really heavy book or something, you know, revenge and encouragement.